FULLY ALIVE

man, even with my new Gold F30+ Tunit Indoor boots, delicious chicken for dinner, fun times out today, jon's lovely guitar still with me, and listening to my current fav song; Flyleaf's Fully Alive, i CANNOT get over the fact that i missed church today.
sigh, i guess there's a lesson to be learnt from all this, that God is above all material things. see? even jon's guitar can't make me stop feeling bad, then what can? aiyoh aiyoh..and to think i was like all hyped up after stacia talked to me. damn, sometimes i feel like a failure when it comes to the important stuff. and sometimes when i look at people like cheng da, who's love life everything is falling into place, you get the feeling that life's just out to get you. i think what i told cheng da last night was quite true, " i can help you with your love life, but i can't help myself with mine". and to add some icing on the cake, i am down with this sickening and really irritating cold. my nose is like some kind of tap lah. worse, it hurts when i blow my nose. today has been a really low day. ima gonna seek some shelter from God later. cause it's like i'm feeling spiritually drained now. mans. but! and i'm like fully aliveeee...haha! at least the song cheers me up, though it sounds emo. ok! enough about today! tomorrows a new day. and it'll be better.

oh yah, and dad tried to be funny.
me (coming out of the car) : wah kao, so stink!
dad: hehehehehehehe! its my durian cakes! their done!
me: ok....so whats up with dad?
dad (covered with smoke from the oven): ahhhh! (one of the first times i've heard him scream in a girly way, and i spend alot of time with him) my cakes!
me: why? they look more like black squares.
dad: aiyoh..wasted.
me: throw lah, chao da till like that.
dad (cutting the burnt cake(!) and trying some): no leh, still can. hahahahah!
me: your mad dad.
dad: i know. haha! go eat your porridge while i prepare two new cakes.
me (as i look at the bowl of plain porridge): so i'm supposed to eat this plain with olives and ikan bilis only?
dad: yah lah! don't be picky son! (in a childish way)
me: you're bonkers dad.
dad: hahahahah!
and theres much more, just that i lazy type on. haha!

hah, seems like my dad's going through his second childhood. but honestly, he cooks well. if hes serious that is. else all you taste is delicious carbon when he's mad and playful. my dad ah..funny man.