THE RIVER.

stupid blogger. stupid fates. stupid everything. but most of all stupid me. no ones to blame. i know you saw the posts. maybe even the one that you were never ever meant to see. but i'm not gonna blame anyone. it's probably just my fault that i like you. so i'll be painfully honest with you.

i have liked you for about 9 months plus already. but after church camp, i decided to stop liking cause it was rather burdening to do so. but even after i did, i felt that i still liked you. so i acknowledged my feelings and decided not to run away. i still like you, but my liking is a "light" one. as in i don't feel that burdened and i'm not that sensitive to things that don't go my way. you could say that i'm just letting God control the flow of things and i'll go with the flow. so thats how things are. the muffin was purely friendly.

not to look on the negative side of things, but i'm already prepared for the worst. i already sensed something bad was gonna happen during recess when i read the bible. the verse was reassuring, but by reading it, i felt that it was to meant to comfort me for something that was gonna happen soon.

anyway! like i said, i'm commiting my life to God. whatever happens it's fine with me, cause i know the plans he has for me will prosper me not harm me. if you see this, i hope you don't have any ill feelings. i still like you. and will unless God says otherwise.

exodus 14:14
" The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to keep still "