DOWN

things are seriously getting bad now. my mum and dad are fighting over stupid things like why do you come back home so late from work. i have practically NO mood to study. people seem to hate my prescence. i lost a good friend. my back pain is getting worse and the tournament which i promised i would play well in is in 8 days. my friends seem to think its alright to joke about my personal stuff which they should'nt know about. i don't feel like going back to church. suddenly its like i forgot how to talk to God. i feel alone and distant from God. my guitar form is lousy. my teachers hate me. the polys havent called yet.

life now, like what dad said about our family, is just one big mess. i don't know what to do. i feel so confused. and worse, God, who just a month ago i felt so close to, now feels far. so far. i don't know what to do. for the first time in my life, i have no spirit to remain positive. maybe im going through a time which wen jun calls the "suay cycle". when will things look up? i don't know. but i'll wait.

empower me, like a rushing river flowing through the sea. Lord send your holy prescence flowing onto me. till i'm living as your child, victorious and free, send the power of your love, empower me.