LETTING GOD DO HIS STUFF.

work work work. thats all there is to do now. today celebrated national day in school. "ponned" staying back with ms tan. went to eat lunch, and, aiyah, i used to it already lah. went ryan's house for what? 20 mins? then he had to go do his stuff. so walked home and bathed. used com for a while, and started on my left over chem stuff. ms tan called (?!) and asked me to go show her my book after tution. so tution-ed finish and walked to school. discussed my test papers with her also. haha, thanks ms tan for being patient. and i found out that its not that i don't know chem, its that either i'm damn careless or i am trying to act smart so i don't see the obvious. hence, all my mcq wrong. ahh, anyway, mistakes are for you to learn from. so came home. ate kfc for dinner and went up to do work again. mum came home, so we watched a show for a while. came up and now typing the post.

today was weird? i can't tell if it's God telling me not to pursue it or just my paranoia. first, the message, which, ok, was me who prompted cheng da to look at. then there was what? the secret conveying of messages. then the whole restart of the babe thing. then the freaking obvious fact that history IS repeating itself. like last year, it was i like him so im gonna "cold shoulder" you cause you like me. then the icing on the cake, whilst i was typing i see someone sign in msn with some romantic nickname.

AHHH! God help me! if it's you telling me to stop, i will. if it's my paranoia, i pray it stops or you help me. hwahhhh, very luan. but whatever it is Lord, love life is secondary now. for now, it's my DPA. i really really (x100000) pray that i get the call. please! i just want to secure my future first! this is all i pray for now Lord. that my DPA passes! nonetheless, i trust in your plan for me. and thank you Lord for a rather good day! ok then, till next time.

gotta get out.