WHEN I WAS AWAY.

i was bored packing my room, so i decided to blog. its not exactly been one month yet, but, ah, i got stuff to blog. so sit tight, as i recount the week's events.

firstly, we all got back our prelim results. being from 4HUM and having friends who did'nt do that well, i experienced both sides of the coin. this exam, the focus was'nt on if the results would jolt us cause we all know that if we don't, our future is bleak. but instead, this exam let me experience the feelings of those who scored well and those who did'nt. to be honest, i don't know how to put this, and it would be more difficult to beat around the bush. but i hope that what im gonna say does'nt offend you in any way. so...

sometimes we don't feel for the people around us when we celebrate a good result. maybe the person next to you failed, and is feeling bad. it does'nt help when he or she hears you lamenting that your a2 was'nt good enough or maybe complaining that your 80marks is'nt high enough although its already an a1. think about it, how much would that person give for your a2? let alone the a1 or mark you are complaining that you did'nt get. that was the issue.

personally, i don't mind if someone does that, cause i understand their joy and its not wrong to do so. anyway, i also become very proud and insensitive of everyone's feelings when i do well in english. but on behalf of my friends who mind, i brought this subject up. i think everyone goes through this during results time because no one gets 7 a1s all the way. this "insensitivity" is something that we do very un-consiciously, i mean, heck, its natural to be happy with sucess. but as i reflected on what i did when i got my a2 for english, i realised that though it is natural, sometimes we should keep our happiness in our heart and thank God in our hearts. we don't get to express our joy or exasperation at not getting that a1 this way, but at least, the people around us who did'nt do that well, won't feel any worse. i always admire people like nisha and weekiat, who, even after doing superbly well in their exams, are humble and consol those who did'nt do that well. they have all the right to celebrate, but they don't, at the expense of their own rights, but at the same time, they let others feel better and more encouraged to press on.

i am not saying that all those who shout "YAY!" after they get good results are wrong. i have never believed that it was wrong to celebrate. but maybe we should tone down on the complaints that we did'nt make that a1 grade and channel the energy meant for complaining to consolling and encouraging those who did'nt do well. i am just saying that, we should do our best to make the people around us feel better and not further dampen their spirits. once again, i want to say that i am not accusing anyone.

i know this is a sensitive topic, it being about our actions and all, but i really hope you don't get offended after reading this. i'm sincerely sorry if you feel upset. i just thought that maybe if we knew about such things that we could be more conscious in the future of our complaints and other people's feelings. well, thats about it. hope everyone's ok with what i posted!


i would also like to thank the following people, and then end of the post.

God - who has always been here by me.
mum - for sticking by me and encouraging me to give my all for my amaths and not give up.
nisha and weixiang - for your encouragement and offer to help. it means alot.
rachel - for the verse, cause it spoke to me.
dad - for being there.
didi - for cheering me up throught the tough week.
the guys - who helped me relax with soceer and their jokes.
friends - who encouraged me.
mrs wong - who made me set out to prove her wrong.
and lastly, joan - for the "don't give up" sms. i really needed it, thanks. and also for all your encouragement, asking me to study and all. what you do really means a lot. i know what i said sounds cheesy, but yeah, my thanks to you!


ok, thats that, before i go, i want to say to ryan, to relax. thats what i always say anyway. but ryan, if you need someone to talk to, i'm here.

alright, till next time then!