ARGGHH!!!!

what the heck is wrong with my family? mum works and works and works,and sometimes goes out for company dinners. is that so wrong? is it wrong for mum to work for the family? you think shes what, going out and having fun ah? while you stay at home and "do all the mundane stuff". dad! please lah, trust your wife a bit more can? you think you one person can support the family? no right? mum has to work, bottom line. so let her work lah. gosh, i can't believe mum took this mis-trust for 20 plus years. and you say mum works and come home and does nothing. i ask you, who is the one who iron? who is the one who wash clothes? who is the one that does'nt want to ask you to do chores cause you're sick???? mum right!? and yet you talk about her like shes some idiot woman and all. mum don't come back for dinner, you scold and fuck around. what the heck man, she works late? whats wrong? i don't see mum shouting at you when you go out till 2am? is'nt that worse? please lah, mum trusts you, trust her back lah. you talk as if without you the family will die. yes, you cook. but honestly, what else you do? you earn money, yes. then?! whole day watch shares, talk to your friends and all. you think the life of a steward sucks ah? i'd die for the job rather than take an office one like mum's. does'nt mean you don't see it happen, means she does'nt work ok. why can't you trust a little bit more. the WORSE part is that after you get angry, you start throwing stuff around. and they break! they cost money leh..please lah. by spoiling the tv won't make mum come back earlier, it just makes her work more, cause she has to re-coup the cost of YOU breaking the stupid tv out of what? anger!? what the heck!!!!!!! i'm not siding mum here. but please, look at yourself! shouting and shouting when stuff does'nt go your way, and screaming at me and didi cause your not happy. have you ever put yourself into one of our shoes? ever! no! everything must be your way, just like you said last time; "i am always correct". so what, you saying you're perfect? no! you're FAR from it!!!! you are really very frustrating to look at you know, arghhhh!!!!! all i ask for is just trust mum more lah! damn, she's your wife for all times sake! and you say me and didi cannot survive at home alone. then how you think we survive when you fly for 11 days? and you say mum does'nt buy food for us when you're not around. she does you idiot! she sacrifices her lunch hour so she can drive home and give us food!!!! have you ever thought about that! NO!!!! all you care about is you you you. the world does'nt revolve around you dad! it does'nt! and no one is obliged to always do what you want them to do! you're NOT king! why do you think we all keep quiet when you shout? cause its out of respect and we don't want you to smash the house! you think cause we're scared of you or really want to listen to the shit you call knowledge!? no! you're not always right dad, think about it. think next time before you blow at people. think why they do that. think why mum works late. and don't let you twisted ideas get in the way! your a great dad, but you need to cool down.

and didi, i suggest you stop watching tv and playing com. its like those 2 things are the only things in your life now. anyway, you better learn how to control your attitude, you are really becoming like dad, and its starting to piss me off. the only reason why i dont do anything when you slap me continuosly, shout at me for no reason and use attitude is cause mum tells me not to. so please, its hard enough having one demanding dictator in the house. dont become one. i can't believe you can tell me that its ok to whack me cause i won't whack back. don't take the things in life for granted. everyone has a limit. so please, change for the better. it'll do you good.

and mum, i'm sorry to see you this way. i wish i could help, but i don't want to fight dad again. its disrespectful and against God's word. i belive that you work hard for us and that your company dinners are occasionally. just don't overwork and remember to relax.

urghh. why do such things happen in the middle of os. it just gives me more to think about. and its hard to keep my mouth shut when all this injustice and silly attitude is going around the house-hold. but since mum asked me to, i will. sigh, i wish i were as patient as you mum. anyway, enough talk about my family stuff. its time to finish this post. so, till next time.