JUST A POST

i was thinking just now, after chemistry o's, how real God was in my life. for the past three days, it has been prayer after prayer answered. i pray for favor, and the questions suit me. i pray for everyone to have a good paper, and it seems like they do. i ask God to do the paper with me, and he does, helping me when i'm stuck. even after i've come home and start brooding about my silly mistakes, i pray for calm, and he gives me re-assurance. it's that strange you know. i have not been to church for almost a year now, only going from time to time. my quiet time count is'nt that high unless its near some important event. i sin, almost non-stop, with bad words and all. and yet, God still answers my prayers, not one, but all, when i come to him out of the blue. it was'nt as if i fasted for 3 weeks prior to the exam before praying for guidance and wisdom. but it was more of like, the night before the exam, after mum gave me my brands essence of chicken. and i'm not particulary deserving of answered prayers too. because i admit, i only really spend time talking to God when its really important and i need his help. you could say i take him for granted. but yet, and i emphasize yet, God still helps me out. no matter how un-deserving, how un-righteous or how un-grateful i am. and thats why i can say over the last 3 days, i have experienced God's grace. this is'nt the first time though, it happened earlier in the year. but the comforting part of it is, it always happens when the situation looks grim. thats why it feels good. as if God is always there to catch you and carry you. no matter how heavy your burdens are or how dirty your clothes are. i am thankful for that, and for almost everything he has done for me. i do feel guilty sometimes, cause all i put in is some shaky faith that God will help me, but in the end, he still does. and lets me know i am loved. and maybe from this experience, i can learn to be grateful, and reciprocate what he has done for me in any small way i can. the bottomline ; no matter what, God's there.


this post for God.

who i shall most definately be spending more time with over the next few weeks.
thank you Lord.