SAD.

sometimes i find that maryse is a good person to talk to. its like when i do, A LOT of things become much cleared. like last night when i talked to her about joan. i realised that it is impossible for me to have friendship with her without trying to chase her. which i don't really to because after evon's reality check, i 've realised,

1.) i'm not in joan's league.
2.) i don't have the looks to compare with the guys who like her too.
3.) basically, i don't cut it.

yet, i want to be friends. and then again, like what i said, after a while, the liking feeling creeps in and i end up trying to get joan to like me too. so the obvious answer would be to stay strangers. which i really don't want. tell me what to do? then again, though i realised i'm not good enough for joan, that nagging thought in me tells me not to give up and press on. aiyah, really really difficult. you could say i'm really stuck. and you could also say i'm really confused.

i know i said i quit the band, but i don't mind re-joining. i wanna have fun. but its alright if i can't ryan. really. no hard feelings. as in honestly ah! i don't want you to write another emo post or what after you read this. haha.

and all because of stupid oliver, got be addicted to maplestory again. haha. now chionging with 2times exp.

well, thats about all. exams officially end tomorrow. chem and phy mcq were ok. at least i think i can get at least a B4 for both. tommorow's bio, which i MUST get 35 and above. so yeah. till next time then.

you make me smile,even just for a while