STUCK

if i quit, i risk making joan upset. if i stay, i go against my own will. no matter. i already made the decision. i'll quit. i want to do something i don't agree with. and i can't turn back now. i don't want to quit and join again. i know quiting will cause problems. i know i'm putting a lot i've stood for and hoped for in the past two years at risk. but i've already told them i'll quit. and things should stay that way. you could say i'm an in-sensitive jerk. quitting because i don't agree with things and causing problems in the process. i know that too. i'm prepared.

it's not cause of you joan that i quit.
it's cause of you that i'm scared to quit.
i admit, i'm scared to lose your friendship.

yet, like many people who know, i ask myself, is this worth it.