HERE WE GO AGAIN...

i got into another argument with mum and dad. this time, the issue was, "why are you not willing to tell us what you do Bryan".

i'm not going to type anything about what went on in the argument. but i just want to say, i can think of 10 people right now, who'd not tell their parents everything that was going on in their lives. bits and pieces maybe, just like me, but never the whole package.

anyhow, i am definitely learning how to be more tolerant and composed due to these arguments. i don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing, but whatever.

to God, i just want to say, i don't know if all this is supposed to be a test or what. i'm sure You know my feelings and thoughts inside out, and You know i'm starting to get pretty sick and tired of all this speculation that my parents surround me with. You know that i sometimes feel that You are using this to punish me for all the stuff i do. yes, i admit i hold those feelings and that at times i blame you. but i just want to say also, that if this is a test, then so be it. and that i pray you'll see me through it, and that it'll produce Your desired change in me.
i don't know if what i'm doing is right, but then that is also why i want to pray for Your guidance during this time.
i leave it all to Your hands. and i know the plans you have for me will prosper me not harm me.

and with that, its till next time!

a beautiful lie.