SOME STUFF

some stuff in life are really stupid.


like how everyone i know of that is of like-able material is either too close to me or too mutual with me such that liking them would seriously be weird and un-comfortable.

like how gym seems to be making me more paranoid.

like how more and more people think i'm gay. seriously.

like how some stuff will just not stop happening.

like how i don't know how long i must plug away before my efforts become recognised.

like how i don't know why you cannot be honest with me.

like how you must come up with some crappy excuse for not picking up when i didn't call you on the day that you 'didn't on my phone'.

like how all this makes me feel really stupid to pump so much feeling and time into it.

like how all this makes me so paranoid till i think i'm cursed when it comes to certain things.

like how all this makes me feel somehow really in-adequate.

like how i seriously must consider doing the realistic thing.

like i really, really, really, really am irritated and do not like it when all these things happen which cause me to have all this paranoia, but then for some reason i can't help it.

like how i seriously want to know, what is good enough for you?

like how i'm putting all my hopes now on The Box.

like how i always type posts like this when stuff happens.


stupid stuff that is.