thank goodness game committee meetings are resuming. at least i have something else to do in my amazingly mundane holiday life besides swimming and gym.

i know i sound very bad, and all you JC people are gonna kill me, but i'm secretly hoping that promos comes quickly and goes. so at least we can meet up and go out! :D

it's pretty amazing how Murphy's Law (although not a scientifically proven and established one) occurs so frequently in our lives.

take my current holiday situation for example. when i want the time to pass quickly (only because i really have nothing to do. yes, i know it is partly my fault), it crawls.

and what happens in say...a game of mahjong. with 4 people! which by the way is quite rare these days so i'm pretty much elated that there's gonna be a session this friday. with 4 people! i want the time to crawl, but instead it speeds up and runs past us like a train out of control.

another thing is, i sorta broke my 40day challenge thingy. after like...14days. i don't know. it wasn't as if i was dying to do what i said i wouldn't. which just makes me feel all the more worse, knowing that i could have done perfectly well without it.

urgh.

this post has been pretty much been about passing thoughts in my head. you tend to get this way, especially when there's too much free time on your hands. it's like an oxymoronic curse, 'cause when i'm back leading my normal (juggle school+personal+social) life, i always seem short of time.

i guess that's the way the cookie crumbles.

you know, i wouldn't mind having lots of free time on my hands and just daydreaming it away. it's just that my room isn't quite cutting it for me as a place to do that.

i want a field.

a big open field with lots of green grass. just grass. no bugs or mud or anything. with the sun shining down on me, bright enough to remind me that God is good, not so bright that it glares. with the weather like spring, un-humid. with lots of breeze, enough to cool me, not so much that i feel chilly. with no noise of traffic. with no one else in it, so it's like a "me" moment. with acoustic music magically playing in the background.

yeah, i'd want that.

then i'd lie in my field. and chew the grass. and look at the passing clouds. enjoy the breeze. let the sun shine on me. hear the grass rustle from the wind. be free of inhibitions; run, shout, sing, roll around because i like where i'm at now.

and when i'm tired out and everything, to just close my eyes and rest.

then i won't have a care in the world. it'll just be me, my field and God.

then i won't have to think about all the "What Ifs" in life.

then my mind'd be clear.

then i'd feel so at peace.

yeah, i'd like that.