SO?

school's ending tomorrow. here i am, doing chem work. as usual, school today was routine. the nice part was the amath mock exam, at least i could do it. now, onto what i wanted to blog about.

so what if i fail your subject for prelims? does it mean i don't want to study hard for it? does it mean i give up? no. fat hope if you want me to. you're a good teacher, but you did'nt have to do that in front of the class. i know you can afford an F9, after all, you're not the me. but i can't. so why don't you, instead of trying to put me down with rants and complains of me having no hope or that you can't see any for me, just shut up and let me do my thing? my dad always says keep your comments to yourself. i don't need your opinions on if my o level has any hope or not. i know it does and thats all that counts. i don't want to know if you don't know what to do with me. i know what to do. so just let me work my way, and stop acting as if you're God, and can predict if i can do well. if everyone who did badly in prelims did badly in os, then why the need to call back the "good improvement" people for ptm? i know im working hard, and thats what counts. not your sarcasm. so maybe people think you're saying that for my own good. but i can see the intent veiled behind your "concern". please, let me do my thing.
and to you, another teacher. you think what? i'm someone you can make an example of in class? you think i don't feel anything each time you laugh at me? worst, you think it's ok for you to talk about me as if i'm mrs.wong's dog? as if the only subject i study is math? sorry, but you're wrong. i'm not some agar piece that you can cut and poke at. for your information, i INTEND to get a1 for your subject. so there. and how can i get my a1 if i don't work hard? you're a good teacher too, but please just leave me to do my thing. sometimes making comments that you think encourage may discourage instead.
i have a question for the two teachers above, do you really think mrs. wong's method of teaching is so divine? huh? huh? cause the way you talk to me now is how she did. you think by putting down your student, giving him the cold shoulder, making really idiotic remarks about him in class, calling him to answer questions in hopes that he will get it wrong and you can laugh at his in-adequeteness or simply tinging your voice with that hardly-noticible (but sorry, i do notice) lace of malice will make me like your subject or push me to do tys everyday? sorry ah. let me get this straight. i do math daily because math distinction = practice. and i want an a2 for both maths. what makes you think that i ignore my other subjects? just so you know, i act like mrs. wong's dog in her class, doing every thing she wants only because i have no choice. not that i want to. but because i know if i don't, she'll do something to me that'll make me let my parents and some friends down.

enough talk. in the end, all i want is for you to leave me to study my own. i can put up with the comments. i just want to voice how i feel. now that i have, i'm done for this post. it feels good to let out your frustration. and in case you can't guess by now, the 2 teachers are....mrs ganesan. and ms.tan. teachers who i respect, but in this case, i find that bit irritating. as for mrs.wong, you know me, i gave up fighting with her a long time ago.

to anyone out there who reads this and feels otherwise. prehaps i'm overly sensitive and all. maybe i just insulted a teacher you like. my apologies then. these are what i feel, and i can't act as if i don't care. once again, i'm sorry if i just insulted a teacher you like or maybe just made myself look like an overly-sensitive crybaby. i honestly had no intend to do so.

back to chem. and till next time.

tired.