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imagine this,

your dad is a nice guy, always gets stuff for you and encourages you. but he's kinda neurotic and at the same time a control freak. his self-confidence is so high that he can proclaim, " Yes. I am always correct. " when you question his actions. he wants the house-hold to live by his rules, cause he feels that he deserves your utmost respect. he does many things for you, but with strings attached. meaning he can just turn on you by saying, " You must listen to me cause i do all the stuff for you " . the worse thing is, he likes to give signs that hes angry, but he wont say it. but of course its damn obvious he is. then when you ask him whats up, he starts lamenting that you are always against him and he is always picked-on. the best part is, when his kids mess up, he blames his wife for not teaching them. because he thinks he way of up-bringing is that good. please. this when his kids learnt to say "fuck you" and "ci bai" at the age of 2. and from him scolding those words while driving. you dad. a nice guy. but with too big an ego and a weird habit of blaming others. in short, he can change his mood just like that. and he expects you to accpet that.

your mum is also a nice person. in fact you are quite close to her, sharing your problems and cracking jokes with her now and then. at times, you guys seem like normal friends rather than mother and child. but your mum is 47. and she is going through a period called menopause. this includes frequent mood swings. coupled with her husband's jekyl and hyde personality and her stressful work schedule, you would probably understand what kind of person she can turn out to be when the mood swings come.

your younger brother. a really caring and close brother to you. you appreciate him for who he is, weird yet cute. but he has a flaw. and addiction to computer games, the tv and also your gaming console. so much so that when your mum prevents him from playing, he has to go to his friends house or just sleep the day away. without those items, his life seems like a void. and hes entering sec2. an important year as there is streaming at year end. yet he does'nt seem to bother about school work, taking every passing day as per normal. this, coupled with your dad and mum's every changing and wildly un-predictable attitudes means trouble. your brother does'nt like to be wrongly accused either, which normally happens a lot because of your mum and dad's mood swings. and so fights are sure to erupt now and then.

you. flaws aplenty yourself and not perfect in personality either. you. the person who hates family fights. but then again, you yourself cant be too judgemental and say you're the overall victim. because you also have wrongs.

imagine that.

now you can see how my life is at home. almost perfect and really happy at times. but also very broken and sad at times.

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