for all the songs i wrote, for all the times i've hurt, for all the smiles i cherish, for all the storms i've weathered through, for all the little things, for all my faults, what must i do to make myself known?
i'm not a model, i'm not cute, i don't get good grades, i'm not a guitar pro, i'm not mr.sensitive, i not a ladies man, i talk too much, i don't make the cut as a hunk, i'm not even in your league, i'm probably wrong to like you. but i try and i fight on and i wait with hope. i don't want to come in between you and your guy, i'm not him. i'm not trying to gain a sympathy vote from you for all this words i write. i just type what i feel and hope you know its real. i get scared everytime i write words like these, because i don't know if the next word i type is the one that will make you turn away or think i'm some drama queen. i watch my every move because i'm scared my next will anger or irritate. i say sorry so many times because i'm afraid everytime you tsk or turn away that i've done something wrong. maybe i'm too paranoid, maybe its what i do that prevents me from being eligible for you, maybe i'm not hot but just some sotong. i'll never know. but at least now you know why i do things the way i do sometimes.